Gratitude on this journey

I've spent much of the past few weeks in meetings, presenting my work, and digging into various research projects, with a bit of intense writing to round out the process. Right now, I'm taking a break from writing book reviews and ranking various teacher resources for a project my supervisor is working on.

I. Love. My. Job.

No, I haven't been on fire every minute since coming here, and yes, the stress of academia and shifting to the PhD mindset is sometimes overwhelming. But on the balance, and especially right now, I click so well with this work, and I am thriving in this environment.

It's kind of a shock; I spent so much of early adulthood as a restless wanderer, taking Tolkien's bumper-sticker maxim that "not all who wander are lost" as my defining mantra, that to feel settled and rooted, content with myself (mostly) and my work is a foreign sensation.

I'm reading Brenda Miller and Holly J. Hughes's The Pen and the Bell for my writing class right now, and the mindfulness-based approach to writing starts out with a gentle directive to notice. The examples in the book are sight-based, but in the pause of my work today, such an overwhelming feeling of joy swept over me that I had to stop and notice it.

So, in this moment before I dive back into research, or before I close my computer entirely and enjoy the sunshine on this cold Sunday, I just had to share this joy.

It's a good feeling, to finally be settling into myself.

Namaste, beautiful ones.

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